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So today was better.  I was very aware that I needed to make up some lost ground.  Here’s how it went:

Breakfast:  1 slice wheat toast w/ jam, hard boiled egg, and small bowl of corn flakes w/ water

Lunch:  salad w/ low fat ranch, a small amount of mixed nuts, and some fruit

Dinner:  frozen lean cuisine w/ green beans

I got a WW dessert for later if I want.  I also went to the gym for a full hour of cardio.

Tomorrow I will stay on track!!!

Have a good day.  Now I’ve got to get back to work!

So no cheating since the beginning of the year until now….I’ve got to be out of town for work and so today I was on the road for a long time ALONE and well I’ve made some seriously bad food choices today for the first time since the beginning of the year.  I did ok up until my last gas stop.  I was hungry for a late afternoon snack and rather than getting one thing I had both a rice crispie treat and some cheese and crackers…I at least drank water and not soda.  Then the only restaurant that was near my hotel that was drive through was Fazolis….rather than keeping it simple I order alfredo and ate both breadsticks!  *sigh*  This can not be how my week goes….I’ve got to find a way to make this out of town thing work for me!

Good news is I’ve got breakfast (oatmeal) covered and I’ll grab some fruit from the hotel breakfast for a snack later.  If we go out to eat I’ll get a salad with light dressing on the side and if at all possible I’ll get a frozen healthy choice from Kroger and eat it for dinner (I have a microwave in my room) - there a plan, I feel better all ready.

Exercise I have covered.  I made sure to get a hotel by the YMCA here and luckily I’ll be bored enough by myself that I’ll easily go to the gym just to kill time.  Hopefully I can work off this horrific dinner I just ate!

Ok so I’m not going to panic.  Just needed a plan!  I’m breathing much better now hahaha!

Have a good week everyone!!!!

 I will say over the last two weeks or so I’ve found that the idea of all this weight I have to loose and how long it is going to take has been a real struggle for me.  It is like when you have to drive to vacation or something.  The trip always seems so long when you’re trying to get there and it is easy to loose focus on the joy you know that destination will bring you.  However, it also seems like the trip on the way back is super fast becuase you don’t want to leave.  

I guess I didnt realize how hard it would be to stay so focused and be totally dedicated.  I thought my gung ho attitude would carry me through but I just can’t be Wendy Happy Weighloss all the time like I want to be.  Some days I just want to sit my fat butt on the couch and eat some Micky D’s french fries….but alas I don’t. 

 So when the coworkers go to fast food, or friends are dining out, I refrain and eat my healthier brought lunch.  When the gym crowds dwindle down and I can actually find a parking space, I rejoice in my small accomplishment that I have continued to go….I really do take the small moments because if I can to find a spark of that starting attitude it is priceless.  I mean I’m going to have to have something to keep me going for well the rest of my life. 

I guess all I’m saying is that it is hard, harder than I expected, to keep up the sunshine attitude and to keep plugging away but I know I have to.  I just have to…..so I will…..even if every day I can’t be sunny about it. 

So that I end on a good note…..I lost 2 pounds this week…I’m down 23 pounds and only 40 more until my mini goal.  I’m hoping to reach my mini goal by July 15th and I think I can do it!!!!

So today is my boss’ birthday and my coworkers  got him a giant ice cream cake from Dairy Queen.  It looks delicious and I’ve got a horrible cold and I thought that it sounded like just the thing to make me feel better…I am sooo tempted. 

SO I knew it was time for extreme measures.  I told my boss if I ate a piece of cake he has to write me up….he laughed and very nicely said….I’ll do you one better.  IF you have that cake I’ll fire you.  This was all a big joke of course but my coworkers are very supportive of my weight loss (work for a small company) so I said, I’ll hold you to it!  So far no cake.  I need this job hahaha!

 Sometimes you have to just take extreme measures to protect yourself I think.  Today was just that kind of day for me what with all the Valentines candy, desserts, fancy restaurants and so on. 

This whole “Valentines Day thing” has got me thinkin’….temptation is everywhere and since I’m still pretty new at this my guard is always up with food.  Lately I’ve felt small slips in my routine and those little “cracks” forming in the framework I’ve set up for myself.  I feel like that frame work (like not eating after 9pm, staying out of restaurants, cooking every night) is so vital to me being successful.  Anyway, those tiny cracks can quickly turn into a condemned building so I decided to refocus today to keep that from happening…I tossed out my food journal for this week (I print weekly sheets) and started fresh.  I still haven’t really cheated or anything but I’m not happy with some of the food choices I’ve been making (even if I’m in my WW points) so I’m changing it!

 Tonight rather than going out with the girls for a huge calorie dinner….I’m making everyone vegetarian whole wheat lasagna with salad and fat free chocolate moose (pudding & cool whip) for dessert.  YUM!

 HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

 So you know in job interviews when they ask you “What is your greatest weakness” and you’re supposed to answer something that sounds like a negative but turn it into a positive….Well I always say my greatest weakness is impatience.  This is true.  I am VERY impatient in most aspects of life.  I speed everywhere (not much but it is true) - I can’t get stuff done fast enough….and slow talkers, well I live in the south and lets say I get frustrated all the time. 

So, I’ve been struggling lately with impatience.  You see, I’ve been continuing on in my work outs.  I actually haven’t missed 1 day at the gym since the beginning of February.  I’ve gone 11 days in a row and plan to hit the gym tonight as well.  I’ve also managed to stay with in my WW points each day so theoretically I’m right on track….but mentally I’m struggling a little and it is because of my weakness. 

I mean I totally understand that a body has to go at its own pace and I’m almost 80 % embracing that but I really feel like at 267 pounds I should be able to shed 2 pounds a week easily as long as I’m exercising and eating right (which I am.)

And I know all the arguments to this tiny weight loss like -building muscle and shedding inches -  but I’m just saying that sometimes it is so hard to not feel bogged down by the sheer number of pounds I have to loose and at one pound a week it could literally take 2.6 years and that is if I loose every week (yeah I did that math grr.)

So when I start letting this weakness take over  like a devil on my shoulder that “munchie monster” shows up.  I’m sorry but he’s just a huge a-hole!  And now he’s even working his way into my points.  Sure I can stay with in my points but rather than eating a veggie for 1 point I’m thinking that the WW ice cream I have is just a measly 2 points, etc.  So, impatience and that damn munchie monster are trying to take over my mind again….Well at least by saying it out loud I know I won’t let that happen!

And the show must go on!  I will loose this weight even if it is 1 flippin pound at a time for 2.6 years until it is gone!  In the meantime I’ve gotta try and find some patience…and kill that ahole “munchie monster.” 

Happy Tuesday!

So I haven’t blogged much this week.  Been kind of a blah week.  Not much to say.  Still chugging along on my weight loss plan but for some reason I feel like a slacker this week.  I mean  nothing has changed or anything, but I just feel different, weird, or whatever.  I’m still right on track as I have been with my food and exercise…everything is the same except my brain….oh and the scale hasnt budged since Tuesday but I’m not going to freak out about that.  Going to just keep on going…new life and all!

 Hope everyone has a great weekend.  Behave and I’ll hopefully feel more energized and “spunky” next week!

So last week I thought my weight loss honeymoon was over.  I lost 1 pound and even though I was a little disappointed I was excited there was still a loss to post.  I know this will take time so I’m not looking for miracles here.  Anyway, with that being said I decided to keep going and make sure this week I got at least 2 pounds off.  I really want to make my mini goal by July and that will require 2 pounds a week.  SO this morning was my “official” weigh in and when I looked down I was like in some kind of state of shock!!!  I lost 4 pounds this week!!!!!!  That puts at a total loss of 20 pounds (aka 80 sticks of butter to me haha!) and I am so excited!  It made me feel so good for not getting down on myself about my one pound last week. 

So for everyone out there experiencing disappointing weeks from time to time, just keep going.  It will eventually pay off.  I know not to expect this type of weight loss every week but it sure feels good today!

Ok quick story now that I’ve been bragging all over about my weight loss….I’ve been taking Turbo Kick at my local YMCA.  This class is intense and I’m by far the biggest person taking the class.  Most of the women taking it are like size two and have the cute fitness outfits with the matching sneakers and socks.  They all talk about carrot sticks and stuff before class and give me funny looks etc.  Anyway, I do my best during class.  I have to grunt my way through class sweating like a pig with a bright red face and a mismatched outfit.  Well in my last nights class there was this girl (probably 19 years old and size 0) she was new and with a friend who is a regular.  They were both giving me these “pity” looks before class (like I didn’t belong or something) and I saw them whispering so who knows if that was about me.  Anyway, possibly I was being too sensitive or self conscious but it was pissing me off.  So I just blew it off and focused on MY work out.  The music started and we started warming up. 

My face is red almost instantly but I push through knowing there is another 50 minutes of class left.  It was then I noticed the girl in front of me, the new one, was really struggling during the WARM UP.  Ok back to focus I thought.  Well we’re about 1/3 through the class and I’m working my butt off when I notice that girl was just standing there trying to catch her breath.  Her friend checked on her and the girl was like “I’m find leave me alone” real bitchy like.  I saw her look back at me and try and push on.  I expect she was thinking something like if this girl can do this I can…hmm?  Anyway, another 5 minutes passes and we’re not even close to the “Turbo” part that is quicker and harder and this girl throws her hands up, turns to her friend, and says ” this class sucks, I am leaving” Her face wasn’t as red as mine and she didn’t have near the amount of sweat on her that I did but I finished the class….so who’s “pitiful” now! hahaha.  Anyway, it really pushed me the rest of the class and at the end the regular girl told me “good work out huh!”  There wasn’t that same pitiful look there.  Felt pretty good that I pushed myself through that class…. Happy Tuesday!

Well I can’t believe January is gone.  I thought it was going to last forever!  I think that the month seemed really long because I’ve done this complete overhaul on my life-style, attitude, and body over the last 31 days.  I’ve eaten less, exercised a ton more, and stuck to my budget.  (I’m trying to get debt free as well as loose a billion pounds, more than I can chew?  NO WAY!Anyway, since the 2^nd of January I’ve lost 16 pounds (well maybe more because I snuck and looked at the scale this morning and I thought I saw a few more pounds drop off!) and I don’t think that is anything to sneeze at.  But aside from the pounds I’ve been able to save a lot of money from not going out to eat.  Basically I avoid restaurants like the plague!  I’ve only been out to eat twice in 31 days!  For a girl that doesn’t like to use her kitchen, that is pretty amazing to me! 

SO forging a head!  My goals are to get down to at least 260 (12 more pounds), continue exercising a minimum of 5 days a week, and stick to my budget including paying off my car 4 months early!  So, can I do all this?   HELL YES!!!  Look at how far I’ve all ready come in just a mere 31 days! 

Ok I’m going to lay the cheese on the table for a sec….I just want to say I love this site and I think that everyone on here has not only been inspirational but motivating at the same time.  For those of you who are struggling  - just know that if this old gal can do this then so can you! 

Ok got that over with!  Now I have to go because it is almost time for Turbo Kick at the YMCA and with only 29 days in this month, I’ve got calories to burn!

Keep it up buddies!