Archive for April, 2008

Hit 40 pounds today!

Well I’ve hit 40 pounds of weight loss today.  I’m pretty excited about that.  Been feeling a little “blah” lately but still keeping up with exercise and doing well on my eating.  I think that alone shows that I’m really changing.  Before any little ‘blah’ mood could send me into a sugar comma or some kind of food binge.  Now I just either wait it out or try and throw in a little more exercise to clear my head…just about anything to keep me from binging on food and I feel pretty good about it.  Now I’ve not been a saint or anything.  I’ve had a few “bad” things….it isn’t all carrot sticks and salads….but the bad stuff is few and far between and I always exercise a little extra too. 

 Anyway, I’m staring down that “mini goal” because I am only 23 pounds away.  I really want to hit it by July when I go on vacation.  I think I can do that for sure as long as I keep this up (which I will!)

 I know I’ve been kind of in and out lately but I wanted to share my progress and wish everyone out there a Happy Tuesday!

My Soccer experience

Well guys, I signed up for soccer months ago but with all the rain the Midwest has had we didn’t play our first game until this past Saturday.  It was my attempt at sports since highschool (nearly 10 years & 150lbs lighter) and needless to say I was nervous.  Well here is how it went….

 Ok I get my target XXL short/capris on (excited they fit even looser than when I bought them and they aren’t technically plus size) with my gray tshirt (our team color) and matching socks and grab a bottled water and head out to the game. 

When I get there we all start warming up by kicking the ball around and getting to know eachother since it is our first game.  I’m excited because I’ve got really nice teamates and it seems really casual.  We set up who will play what positions.  I insist on playing defense b/c I KNOW running is going to be a problem and defense usually doesn’t have as much up/down the field as the rest of the players.  Oh and did I mention that a bunch of girls for each team couldnt make it so we’re playing 7 on 9 (my team had the 7 players, yikes) so there were no potentials for subs, we were in it for the long haul, alone!

The whistle went off and I am pumped and we start playing.  For about the first 15-20 minutes I’m keeping up.  I’ve got a small issue though and it is every time I run I can hear my fat belly jiggling.  I’m laughing about it now becuase it is hilarious (you should hear it haha) but in the game it was freaking me out.  I know gross right!

So about 30 into the first half I thought I was going to die.  The idea that I had another entire 45 minute half left made me want to fake some kind of seisure so I could get the heck out of there!  But half time came and I got some water and sat down and the miracle came that b/c of the impending rain we’d only play a 30 minute 2nd half.  I siked myself up and got back on the field.   So the 2nd half went by a little faster but was still side splittingly painful.  I used all the energy I had left and just tried to keep moving and do a good job for my team. 

 After the game was over I felt a huge sense of RELIEF.  I had made it and I didn’t pass out or throw up or anything but I felt like someone ran over me with a semi truck.   But on the way down to the car I smiled.  The 288 pound me would never have even tried….and even though it was probably the most physically difficult thing I’ve done in 5 years - I finished it and did a pretty ok job at it too.   Sure I’ve got a wide open space for improvement and I’m for sure the slowest runner on the team….but I still did it….and I’m still able to remember that great feeling every time I stand up because I’m still sore today LOL! 

So go do some physically painful exercise today hahaha….it feels awesome! 

My weigh in and other ramblings…

Well I’m down to 251.  Once I get under 250 I’ll be the smallest I’ve been in I don’t know how long - at least 2 years I think.  I’m pretty excited to be close to that number and I’ll be even more excited to be UNDER it because that would be a real forward moving accomplishment.  Hope that makes sense?  I guess what I mean is to be under that weight in my head is like saying that I’m really going to be able to do this and I can keep going…

 Weight loss is so day by day because the bigger picture is so overwhelming when you have 150 pounds to loose.  But seeing that mini goal in the future and having a resonable date to accomplish it has really kept me going.  I can’t wait to see 225 (then 199, then 188 - yes I have my future mini goals planned out I’m type A ha-ha) and I know I won’t stop unti I see every goal number in my head.  It drives me to keep going. 

I want to say to anyone who think it will take losing 100 pounds to feel better physically and emotionally that even at 37 pounds of weight loss I feel like a whole new woman.  I actually love to exercise!  Some days are harder to get to the gym but I go anyway and when I’m done I feel better than when I went in.  I wouldn’t say I’ve been hit by a ton of new found energy or anything.  A lot of diet commercials and people say how much energy they get back.  I am still a big fan of sitting on the couch and watching TV in the evenings (after my work out) but I can tell that I’m less likely to be a totaly potato about it.  Some nights I might even get up and do a few sets of arm bands during commercials or do some light yoga poses…or even “bench press” my little dog Teddy b/c he thinks that is playing - hahaha!   

 OK I’ll quit rambling…but last thing.  I’m SOOO excited to watch the finale of Biggest Loser tonight.  I really hope a woman wins the whole thing this time.  I’ve never watched this show before but it really inspires me.  I’m sad it is going off the air after tonight.  But there is always next season!  Hopefully I’ll be down a few more mini goals by then.

 Happy Tuesday!

Picture Change..

OK guys, I changed my profile picture to something more recent.  Honestly though I really can’t tell much difference in my face.  I did wear a size 22 jeans this weekend and felt great….although I’m now looking to get into my size 20 clothing!  Anyway, I put the two pics below just to see if side by side I could tell much of a difference and I really can’t BUT thats ok because I feel a difference and that is what matters!  Hope everyone is having a great Monday!  It is a beautiful day here first one in a long time (darn rain) - hope everyone gets out to exercise!

9/07        4-5-08

The big 30!

Well I finally made it.  I hit the big 30 pounds weight lost!  Technically I’m at 32 pounds but whos counting - haha!  I’m pretty excited about that too.  I measured today for the first time since February and I’ve lost a couple of inches in all the key areas and then 1-1.5 inches in my legs and arms.  That was pretty cool too.  So I’m 31 pounds away from my mini goal.  I’m hoping to hit this goal by July 14th which is right before I go visit a friend in Vermont.  I haven’t seen her in about a year so I think she’ll be so surprised and that will be fun.   

I’ll try and get some pictures this weekend of me to post but honestly I don’t think that there will be much to tell yet.  I can fit in most size 22 clothes now - down from a solid 26 but I still don’t really “see” it yet but I do have to look at myself every day so I probably won’t for a while.  Others do though and that is cool.    In fact the YMCA said I need to update my photo b/c I look so different.  I asked them if I could wait until I reached my mini goal because I think that will be a good bf & after picture - scary!

Happy Tuesday everyone - hope you’re all having a great day and keeping up the good work!